Gateway to Answers

August, 2010

Auditor: Dexter Gelfand
http://community.freezone-tech.info/dexter/

I’m particularly proud of this one. Rehabbed me as a case cracking auditor, brought back for me what I felt back in my CoS days, when I reveled in taking on the cases that others hadn’t succeeded to change. This was such a situation. I am fully back and better than ever as an auditor, and case programmer!

Success Story

Today I got a new awareness on anchor points. I saw that instead of just points that define a room or building or such that they can be a stuck point on the track, but not just some objective point. They have content, anything from charge, pain, love, heavy upset, thoughts, postulates, considerations, feelings, emotions, sensations, you name it. This is another way to describe a stuck point on the track, or a heavily charged incident.

I found an anchor with so much in it, it was a mock up of a being and all the mega ARC it represented. And the being had its own anchor point there as well, and still may. I have dropped my anchor / stuck viewpoint there, which was somewhere out there in the universe. In the moment of releasing it, I felt naked, disoriented and that it was okay to be myself and be off on my own.

Sometimes you just don’t want to let something go, it’s a problem in havingness, but something can be so desired, wanted and loved that one can lose sight of it being a game, and ARC itself becomes a trap. But no matter what game is played, for me ARC with fellow beings and sharing experiences is senior to the game, although some games are more fun than others. This old anchor point was the game of being on an eon long vacation of traveling around the universe and seeing the sites with someone I that shared very high mutual ARC. That is hard to let go of. How could I go it alone? I’m better oriented into PT and have a nice ease of intention in pursuit of my goals.

It’s a constant reaching to unravel one’s case. Day by day, process by process. I feel very good with Dex as my auditor, and feel great working with him to break through my case to higher and higher levels.

ARC,
Jeff

In my solo session today, I had what was for me a transcendent increase in understanding of pan-determinism and individuation, which of course is the opposite of pan-determinism and also, I’ve come to realize, the opposite of, or the moving away from, the state of OT.

Individuation is the abandonment of viewpoint, and thus the withdrawal of beingness and responsibility. Acting harmfully toward another or others must be preceded by an individuation from those beingnesses, or viewpoints, which is individuation. If one hasn’t withdrawn from a beingness, then to harm that beingness would be to harm oneself, which is, of course antipathetic to one’s basic urge to survive, experience more pleasure, and less pain.

At the moment of realization, I felt a sense of all of my own  suppression of my connections to those terminals I’ve separated from drop away, and I felt a renewed interest and willingness to experience those beingnesses appreciate them and thus be in ARC. Before this, I was troubled by the fact of having severed ties to past terminals, and willingly maintaining that refusal to connect, and I didn’t know how to resolve that. I have thus attained a new and higher level of being whole on my dynamics. It is a very joyful state!

Love, Dex

I just had a major gain in a solo auditing session as part of my solo course, part B. I became completely able to be without need to identify myself as anything other than simply me, free of fixed attitudes or mannerisms, able to be nothing- literally, no-thing. Identity is a MEST symbol, a way of being recognized as “something” in the material world, or MEST universe. It is a limitation to one fixed viewpoint within the MEST universe, and it springs from the obsessive need to be recognized as being something, and the fear of being nothing (see “The Story of a Thetan”)- no-thing, as in the definition of a static, I have achieved recognition of being a static. Identity limits and categorizes a being. Free of a fixed viewpoint for identification purposes, I am free to assume all views or no views. View full article »