In my solo session today, I had what was for me a transcendent increase in understanding of pan-determinism and individuation, which of course is the opposite of pan-determinism and also, I’ve come to realize, the opposite of, or the moving away from, the state of OT.

Individuation is the abandonment of viewpoint, and thus the withdrawal of beingness and responsibility. Acting harmfully toward another or others must be preceded by an individuation from those beingnesses, or viewpoints, which is individuation. If one hasn’t withdrawn from a beingness, then to harm that beingness would be to harm oneself, which is, of course antipathetic to one’s basic urge to survive, experience more pleasure, and less pain.

At the moment of realization, I felt a sense of all of my own  suppression of my connections to those terminals I’ve separated from drop away, and I felt a renewed interest and willingness to experience those beingnesses appreciate them and thus be in ARC. Before this, I was troubled by the fact of having severed ties to past terminals, and willingly maintaining that refusal to connect, and I didn’t know how to resolve that. I have thus attained a new and higher level of being whole on my dynamics. It is a very joyful state!

Love, Dex

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